This year has been a whirlwind, I cannot believe it is already May and yet I feel like I have done nothing this year, except go to Ethiopia.
March - April was a rough two months for me mentally, not necessarily financially because March was my busiest month. But at the same time, March was my most clouded month. At the end of February till the end of March I was dealing with tension headaches which made it really hard for me to work and get motivated to work. As well as getting prepared for our trip to Ethiopia, there wasn't much time to work on growing my photography business.
April was the month when I felt the most depressed. We returned from Ethiopia and the re-entry shock alone is always difficult no matter how many times you have been to a developing country. But mostly I wasn't feeling myself all month, not motivated, didn't know what to shoot or really who I was as a photographer. I was going through a identity crisis I guess. I started thinking to myself, maybe I should just get a full time job and do this on the side for fun. For most of the month I was on the job hunt, applying for every kind of job. Graphic Design, Warehouse, Coffee Roaster, even analytical jobs that I was nowhere near qualified for.
After a few interviews and one second interview and not getting the jobs, I realized that God really must have a plan for me in this photography thing. Still trying to figure out what He was trying to show me through all that job hunting but one thing I did find out, is that I am a photographer, that is my full time job. So I am done with trying to job hunt and am going to start really owning up to who I am and what I do.
With that said, today I started writing out some goals. A few are small goals and a few are big goals that will be really hard to achieve. I will be working on some rebranding this year, building a new portfolio based around work I want to create and trying to land an agent. If you're wondering what my specialties are, I am currently a little all over the place, but plan on narrowing them down by the end of the year. My goal is to work mostly in the editorial / photojournalist world. Covering subjects like lifestyle, food and travel. As well as still keeping true to my inner calling of Humanitarian work.
Thanks for following along on this crazy journey of mine. Hopefully in a month or two I will write part four and will include some updates. For now, here is a photo of a guy fishing in Tybee Island.